Just a day ago, while I was out with Jia, we were talking about our life. Talking about how much we've been through, talking about our family background, talking about how much our parents have done for us, and what and how our life could have been should things happened otherwise..

And just today, I received a piece of news from a really close friend of mine that his Dad has just passed away. It's obviously shocking to me because from as far as I've known, his Dad was quite a healthy person, no major illnesses etc..

Second time.
In less than a fucking quarter of a year.
I received this kinda news.

It's really scary and it's scaring me very badly, I'm not kidding. Especially when this is happening to my very own close friend. I can totally feel him. I felt it, and am still feeling it. This pain is so indescribable..... Everything seems to be so surreal. How I wish all of this is only just a dream..

I often wonder will I be the next??? I'm afraid. Because I know I cannot afford to lose anyone just like that, at this age and at this point of time but I know that no one's able to predict what's gonna happen next..

When a friend passed away 2-3 years ago, I told myself I'll change, I've to start cherishing everyone around me. I've to stop talking to my elders back at home in a rude manner.

I failed.

When a friend lost his Mom to an illness a month back, I told myself all of those again.
And expectedly, I failed again.

I still act like a brat. I still behave as if the whole world owed me money. I still talk rudely to them.

But now, after this incident, I guess it's really time for me to wake the fuck up and start acting like how a filial child would, before I lose anyone away to death.. Before I regret about all the things that I could have done but didn't and before everything's too late.

失去了才懂得珍惜...... By then it'll all be way too late......





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To E:

Just give me a call and I'll be there for you, just like earlier on.
I promise.

Please promise me to be strong, for yourself, for your Mommy&for your Sist.
It's time for you to grow up already, no more nonsense, no more time for you to waste because from now on, YOU take over your Dad's responsibilities.

And if you need any help, please know that I'm just 8 digits away only. Anytime, I'll be there.
I love you, my dearest all-time best bro.